Hello my loves,
Now its been an up and down year to say that least. 2021 was filled with the most challenging moments of my life. It was the type of year I wanted to just write off, to forget and never look back on. Now while part of the year I don't like to look back to, one little moment changed everything. It changed me. It changed us.
This little one is due September 1st. Now considering we thought we were going to struggle to have children this came as such a wonderful surprise. We found out about this little one at 2.45pm on the 31st January. we originally went to this scan and it was marked as "infertitly investigation". Now I cried for weeks about those words because to me, being mum is all I've ever dreamed of. Now I know just how lucky we are that this little one came naturally but the shock when they scanned me and went "Sorry did you say you were here for an infertility investigation, because there's already a baby in there" WHAT THE ACUTAL F*CK!
I can now happily confirm to the world (Well Facebook, not that the world cares) that we are carrying a lovely healthy baby. They are not even here yet but my world has changed. Im not not just me. Im me and baby and thats a daunting task. The happiness outweighs all that but I do want to touch on the fact that IT IS OKAY not to feel like you. To feel like you're not the person you once were. I know the old me is still around and being a mum already is the most wonderful thing. Im very thankful to have my other half who has been the biggest support. Through the morning sickness to fetching me snacks at a moments notice.
Meet the newest member of the team...
We moved out recently as well, everyone quizzed why we needed the extra room. Thats now filled with cute little baby clothes, an abundance of books for our little one and a million dreams of who they will become.
I really hope I can share this journey with you all, not that anyone really reads this but I dont want to sugar coat it. If I struggle I want to share that, I want to be able to make sure people know that this is okay. Pregnancy doesn't come with a handy how to book but as a first time mummy to be, I just want to be able to document all the little ups and downs of the journey.
Speak soon x
